Happy 34th birthday Son

Happy 34th Birthday Son

Memories of so many birthday�s flood my mind.
The games in the backyard with so many friends.
The special birthday cakes,
Chocolate Chocolate Chip with Chocolate Frosting.
So as September 13 approaches I think of your birthday and of you.
I still celebrate the date of your birth,
but the celebrations are now a mixture of tears and joy.
It�s just impossible not to think about what should have been.
I wonder what you would have become, now that you would be 34.
You were such an amazing artist but you had so much talent in so many area�s.
You held the world in your hand so many posiblities were open to you
I can't help but wonder what the world is missing out on without you in it.
I think about how your death changed the lives for so many of your friends.
You were so special to each of them. They tell me every day with you was an adventure.
On September 13, as I remember you and the gift you were I find I am longing to see you.
You were my life you were the Son that most parents wish for.
You gave my life meaning, you made it all worthwhile...
and though in the end it broke my heart beyond repair....
I would give anything if I could have you back again,
If we could do this all over again but never have it end...

Happy Birthday To My Blue Eyed Angel

Written for Josh by his Mom who loves and misses him with all her heart and soul

Just Let Me Cry

I believe that everything happens for a reason.
We�re not just tossed by the wind,
or left in the hands of fate.
But sometimes life sends a storm that�s unexpected.
And we�re forced to face our deepest pain.
When I feel the heartache begin to pull me under...
I dig my heels in deep,
and I fight to keep my ground.
Still, at times the hurt inside grows stronger.
And there�s nothing I can do but let out...
Just let me cry.
I know it�s hard to see.
But the pain I feel isn�t going away today.
Just let me cry.
Till every tear has fallen.
Don�t ask when...
and don�t ask why.
Just let me cry.
When I agreed that God could put this heart inside me.
I understood that there would be a chance that it would break.
But I know He knows exactly how I�m feeling...
And I know in time He�ll take the pain away.
But for now...
Just let me cry.
I know it�s hard to see.
But the pain I feel isn�t going away today.
Just let me cry.
Till every tear has fallen.
Don�t ask when...
and don�t ask why.
Just let me cry.
I have felt joy,
the kind that makes my heart want to sing.
And so my tears are not a surrender,
I�ll feel that way again.
But for now...
For this moment...
Just let me cry.
I know it�s hard to see.
But the pain I feel.
Isn�t going away today.
Just let me cry.
Till every tear has fallen.
Don�t ask when...
and don�t ask why.
Just let me cry.

Hillary Weeks
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